Thursday, February 26, 2009

Happily Ever After?

A few weeks ago, I was asked to write out my testimony for a local women's event. I decided to share it with you today.



Have you ever been truly gripped by fear, so paralyzed by panic that you literally felt crippled? Fear has a way of manifesting itself in many forms. Maybe for you it’s finances, your prodigal child, the uncertainty of your job, or a rocky relationship. For me, it is cancer. It’s just one of those words that I never planned to add to my resume. Then again, none of these things are, are they?


Throughout the past several months, God has been teaching me some incredible truths about this life. Let me give you a little history. Travel back with me to November 16th, 2007. This was a joyful day for me, as it was the day of my first date with my husband, Brian. We had become good friends through our church’s singles ministry, and the time seemed right for us to try our luck at dating. I was never one to date too much for fun. I always dated to marry. So, from the first date, I was giving him the once over. I was perplexed because I couldn’t find anything glaringly wrong with him. We continued to see each other pretty much every day for a few weeks. When we hit the 3 week mark, we started talking marriage, and we booked the church for the following June. If you knew me, you would know that is WAY outside of my comfort zone. I’m one of these type-A, control freak women. I’ve got everything scheduled a year in advance, so to plan a wedding after dating for 3 weeks was totally out of my realm of thinking. But, nonetheless, we had been praying together and I had been praying for years for my husband, and we both felt God leading us in that direction.


Fast forward to June 7th, 2008. Ahh! Our wedding day. It was exquisite! Everything went perfectly and we were two peas in a pod. We honeymooned in the Caribbean and returned home full of wedded bliss. Brian was unemployed at the time, so we had a month off together. No jobs. No schedules. And, alas, no money! We were looking diligently for employment for him, but jobs in his field just seemed few and far between. Money was tight! We got to experience the strife, from day one, created by financial strain. Finally, a great job came along and things were looking up! Month one – we conquered unemployment and we were feeling pretty good about our little married selves.
Then, our second month of marriage rolled around. Things were so smooth and happy and just plain easy. They always say, “Watch out when things seem easy because a storm’s a brewin’.” Well, that was literally the case for us. On August 23rd our house was struck by lightning and every major fixture was ruined by a power surge. At first, we thought, “How fun! We’ll get to vacation at our family’s houses for a few days.” Well, a few days turned into weeks, and before we knew it we were homeless with all of our salvaged possessions residing in a POD in our driveway. After a month of displacement, everything was repaired or replaced and we moved back in. Month two – we conquered homelessness and devastation!


Again, we were drunk on love and ecstatic about moving back in to our newly remodeled home. At last, all was well and life would continue peacefully, or so we thought. September 4th, 2008 is a day that I will never forget as long as I live. I was working on lesson plans at school when my cell phone suddenly rang. “Mrs. Pond?” I heard a man’s voice announce. “I’m so sorry. It’s not what we thought. You have grade 3 invasive ductal carcinoma. Breast cancer.”


My heart was beating out of my chest. It was all I could do to get through the conversation with the doctor without hanging up on him. I didn’t want to believe it. In fact, I couldn’t believe it. This was the third major blow to Brian and I in our three-month-old marriage. Unemployment. Lightning strike. And now cancer.


Now, I don’t tell you all of this in order to gain your pity or sympathy. I tell you all of this to boast in my Jesus. Through each of these trials, and especially through cancer, I have learned so much about the character of Christ. He has given me insight about trials and His work in us through trials. Let me share with you God’s purpose for bad situations, His plan for overcoming them, and His promise through them.


In the Bible in the first chapter of James it says, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.” (James 1:2-3) I think the biggest lesson of this life is learning that God is less concerned with our happiness than He is with our holiness. The whole point is that we become more like Christ, who suffered and died. In order to be like Christ, we have to identify with Him. We have to feel a tiny hint of the pain He felt. So, the purpose of trials is to develop our holiness.


When lightning strikes, either literally or figuratively, our human nature tells us to go into panic mode. My first inclination is to circle the wagons and get a game plan in place for getting out of the dismal conditions. But, God calls us to do something else. He says in His word, “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” (Matthew 6:33)

What does it mean to seek? It means to desperately hunt for, to seek out, to diligently search. I was thinking the other day when I lost my keys, “I bet if I sought God with the same eagerness that I search for my lost keys, I’d be one satisfied woman.” We’ve got to look for Him and His work when trouble comes.

The second part of the plan is found in Phillipians, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” (Phillipians 4:6) Most Christian women are quick to pray when there is danger on the horizon, but many forget the second part of the verse – “with thanksgiving”. I have finally learned that before I ask God for any sort of blessing or prayer, I must thank Him for what He’s already done, and for what He is going to do. And that whole “do not be anxious” bit is pretty tough for a control freak, too. But, when we are truly laying our burdens at the foot of Jesus, in hopeful expectation of His intervention, there is absolutely no reason to be anxious or worried.


And finally, the good news – God’s promise to us in John 16. "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." (John 16:33) I get chills every single time I hear or read this verse. “I HAVE OVERCOME THE WORLD!” Is that life-changing for you? It sure is for me. My Jesus has overcome sickness. My Jesus has overcome financial strains. My Jesus has overcome unemployment. My Jesus has overcome every tiny difficulty in this world. Lay your burden at his feet today. Let the Living Water refresh your spirit because you know – He HAS overcome!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

A Place to Call Home

What does your home represent to you? For me, my home is a symbol of rest, relaxation, comfort, serenity, rejuvenation, and generally just a place to unwind and recharge my batteries. I believe that it is important for women to make their homes havens for themselves and their husbands and families. Our houses should be places that we look forward to going into, a place where our loved ones feel at peace. Come with me. Let's tour our new home. Please keep in mind that we've only lived here for 1 1/2 weeks. This home is not decorated to the nines yet and it is not yet a finished product. The purpose of this post is simply to give you a glimpse at our new space. I'll keep you updated as I decorate.


Front View

Come inside.

Office - this room has 12' ceilings and a very tall window. I love that.

Guest Room.

Guest Bath


Formal dining room. Obviously, we're not using it as that. Brian calls it "The Waiting Room". Again, I know this room needs a bright rug and artwork.


Dining Room


Laundry Room. Haven't organized/unpacked this room yet. But, I'm SO happy to have a laundry room, and it's even big enough for a dog crate!!!


Front Entry

Living Room + Vito


Living Room + Gladys

View of short hallway, looking into hall bath


Hall bath


Future Workout Room


Extra Bedroom. Brian said that I can put anything I want in here, except for a baby.


Master Bedroom


Master Sitting Area (Master Bath to right)


Long Hallway, looking into Master Bedroom. (It's not as skinny as it appears in this photo, and I know it needs stuff on the walls. All in good time...)

Master Bath. I take a dip in that tub every. single. day.

I have arrived. I have a walk-in closet. J/K, I've just been cramming my clothes into an itty bitty closet for years. This pic only shows 1/2 of the closet, too.

Another Living Room view

Kitchen. I have been cookin' up a storm in here!
And, there ya have it. This is the place that Brian and I are calling home these days. Y'all, it's only because of the Lord, too. I'm just constantly in awe of his provision, blessing, and care of us. He's an awesome God, and I am nothing without His constant intervention in my life.








































Tuesday, February 24, 2009

We have contact... sort of.

It is SO nice to be back with you after a writing/blogging hiatus. I didn't realize how much of an outlet this blog is for me, until I was unable to post for so long. Friends, much has transpired since the move. Things have come. Things have gone, and we're still chugging right along in this little journey of life.
As I reported earlier, I am a chemotherapy graduate! I am now victorious in my fight with breast cancer, and after 6 long rounds of chemo, I am happy to report that I am feeling great. I didn't have pictures to show earlier, but here are some photos of me ringing the bell at the cancer center. Again, I was shocked at what an emotional experience this was. I had no idea the relief that was waiting to pour out of me when I reached up to grab the rope to the bell. It was unbelievable peace, joy in my God, and excitement for the future all rolled into one.


To answer the most popular question that I'm getting these days - no. My hair is not growing back yet. To be precise, my head never became completely bald. Sure, for all practical purposes, I look like a billiard ball, but there is a nice layer of peach fuzz residing on my crown. My oncologist told me that it would probably take about 4-6 weeks for me to start seeing any real growth. And, for the second question - yes. I will be sporting a short style. I will NOT continue to wear scarves/hats until my hair is long. As soon as you can clearly tell that I'm a woman, I will be revealing my new locks. I never thought that I'd be one to pull off super short hair, but, then again, I never thought that I'd have a need to. Again, this is just part of the lemonade-making process. You know, "when life gives you lemons..."
Oh, I have so much more to post about, but I don't want to take up all of your time. Until next time...

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I'm Still Here...

Hi, Guys!

Just wanted to let you know that I'm still here. Brian and I have been extremely busy with the move, and we are settling in nicely. As of yet, we don't have internet access at home, but we're hoping to get it by the weekend. Stay tuned...

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Mission Accomplished

Do you ever just sit quietly before the Lord for a minute and think, "Wow, God! What in the world did I do to deserve such immense blessing?" That's the state of mind that I'm in this evening as I write this post. I wish that I had some pictures to share with you from the past 2 days, but I'm not sure that even they would fully communicate my overwhelming feelings of gratefulness to God.

Yesterday, was a special day. I did not plan on being so overcome with emotion as I walked out of the chemo lab, done with chemo for the last time. I had tears of joy as I walked out of that place, and so did the nurses. At the cancer center, they do a big hoopla for you when you complete your treatments. I was adorned with a lei, presented a certificate, a Survivor keychain, and a breast cancer ribbon bear. I walked out of there, rang the completed chemo bell, and cheered, as those around me cheered for me, too. I was literally moved with emotion at what God has brought me, an undeserving sinner, through. Y'all it was such a picture of redemption for me. I began this journey as an infected, diseased human in need of healing. Through a series of complicated trials and difficult lessons, I finished the process as a healthy person. Isn't this what God does for us? He cleanses us from our tainted selves, so that we might emerge as new creations in Him. Wow!

After chemo, I had a celebratory lunch with my family, and then Brian and I went to get the keys to our new home. Y'all, we hit the floor running, and we actually slept at our new house last night. Today, we were blessed to have so many friends and family members help us move and unpack. We are surrounded by the family of God, and there's just nothing like that. I've never met such an eager group of servant-minded people. They jumped in there, and had us moved in less than 3 hours. UNBELIEVABLE!

And now, I'm tired. I'm beginning to feel the effects of chemo - the stiffness, the body aches, the sore throat and mouth, the nausea and ravenous hunger that go hand-in-hand (until you've been through chemo, I don't think that you could understand it). But, this is it. I don't have to think, "Just 3 more times of this. Just two more times. If I can just do this once more." I'm DONE!

God's timing is so perfect. He had us close this sick, cancer-filled chapter of our lives on the same day that we physically moved into a new home. Coincidence? I think not. I think this is just par for the course for my God. I am so looking forward to a new season. A new chapter. A new life.

Until next time...

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Woo Hoo!!!

I am ECSTATIC to report that tomorrow, Friday the 13th is my last chemo treatment! I can't even begin to tell you the relief, excitement, and just unbelievable bliss that has overcome me in the past few days. I truly cant believe that it's over. It's been hard. It's been frustrating. But, it is done!!! I'll probably be out of pocket for the next few days. There's a ton going on, on Pleasant Drive - chemo, moving, closing on our house, etc. etc. Keep us in your prayers!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

In the eye of the beholder...



These sights might not represent beauty to you, but they sure do to me. We finally took the plunge tonight and starting packing. Ugh! I love moving to new place but I hate packing and unpacking. It's horrible! These bookshelves were decorated to the max, full of books and bookends and pictures and candles and treasures from travel. Man, oh man, it took 6 boxes to pack them up! I can't wait to show you pictures of our new residence. I'm going to turn in our lease agreement tomorrow, so hopefully I'll have pictures to post soon. I'm not sure when we'll actually move. Ahhh, to fresh beginnings!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Doggie Dilemma

So, we've got a problem on dear old Pleasant Drive. We have 3 lovely dogs, right? Right. Well, let me give you a little history. Vito and Brian came as a package deal. Vito has been his famed sidekick since college. If you're a long time blog reader, you know that we purchased Gladys together back in August. And then, there's Samson. He has middle child syndrome like you wouldn't believe. He's a rescue dog, and he came with his own set of issues. He is just as loving as you can imagine, but he is so protective of food and other property. I guess it's just the same as it is with orphans - they are often very protective of property because they have so little. Anyway, we haven't had a bit of trouble with Samson in months. He has attached himself with glue to Vito, and he is always in his shadow. But since we put the house on the market, and we've had strangers in and out, he is all out of sorts. We're hoping that things even out with him once we move and get settled. Otherwise, we're going to have to return him to the rescue center. Uh! I can't imagine what it might be like to raise children if it's this hard to raise dogs. :)

Friday, February 6, 2009

Going Once. Going Twice... SOLD!

Ladies and Gentlemen, I'd like to report that after 3 weeks on the market, our house is sold! I give glory only to the Lord. Last Friday, we received our first offer. Unfortunately, we just couldn't get to an agreeable place with those buyers, so we had to pass up the deal. Then, last night we received our second offer, and it was much more promising. At about 11:00pm, we accepted the offer and trudged off to bed, tired from the evening's events.

Please continue to pray for these things:
-Our house was built in 1958, so pray that all of the inspections go smoothly. We've updated almost everything in the home, but you just never know.
-Pray that Brian and I will find an affordable place to live for the next few months. We've decided to rent for a while to give us time to really look and exhaust all of our options.
-Pray that God would give us the strength and energy to pack all of our belongings.
-Pray for a smooth deal that would go to closing.

We covet your intercession! Thank you for staying tuned...

Thursday, February 5, 2009

One of those days...



Here at Pleasant Drive, we're claiming the day as a day of rest, refreshing, and rejuvenation. Maybe you should do the same!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

"How are you?"

I get this question at least once a day. Usually more. I'm so blessed to be around people who are concerned for my health and well-being. I'm thankful to have people around me who love me and are constantly thinking of me. To answer your question...

I am weak.
I am tired.
I am weary.
I am frustrated.
I am impatient.
I am waiting (on God's timing for so many things).
I am moody.
I am irritable.
I am full.
I am in love.
I am happy.
I am joyful.
I am relieved.
I am strong.
I am confident.
I am at peace.
I am healthy.
I am ALIVE!

Monday, February 2, 2009

By now you know, if you're one of my regular readers, that I often look for the lesson in life. I like to find insight in the most commonplace happenings. Today is Groundhog Day. This is not one of those holidays that I truly celebrate or even take note of. But today, I guess because I'm in a very reflective state of life, I really stopped to think about it.

When Brian got in this evening, he switched the TV channel over to the 1993 comedy "Groundhog Day", starring Bill Murray. I hated this movie when I was younger. I thought, "How ridiculous is that? It's like watching a broken record!" Well, today I considered a deeper meaning behind the film, which I'm sure the directors never intended for its viewers to do.

I noticed that the main character, Phil (played by Bill Murray), keeps reliving the same things over and over and over. It's frustrating, boring, and even infuriating to him. He sees no results, gets nowhere, and is literally stuck in a vicious cycle. But then, Bill wisens up. He starts making changes to his routine so that he can break the cycle of boredom. He invests in people. He cultivates different behaviors and tries new activities. Ahhh! At last, Phil is free from the repetition. He sees results. Things happen. Life changes.

Friends, our lives are the exact same. We can't expect results from a life that is stuck in a rut. When we're doing what we've always done, we're going to get what we always got. It's when we break the cycle, cultivate healthy attitudes and behaviors and relationships that change is going to come!

Let's become people of change today. Let's live up to our potential. Let's break the cycle that's destroying all that God created us to be!

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P.S. - The offer on our house did not work out. We're still trusting God for his perfect timing and sovereignty in this, and every, situation. We appreciate your continued prayers!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

You're Killin' Me!

Hi, Folks,
It's been a few days since I last posted. We've been BUS-Y!!! Here's what's been takin' up our time . . .

1. We got an offer on our house on Friday afternoon. It wasn't a great offer though, so we're still negotiating through it. We're not really hopeful that this one is going to work out. Please pray that God would bring a qualified buyer with a strong offer to us, whether it be the offer we have or another.

2. We've had to kind of start hypothetically thinking about where we're going to go next. So, that's taken a lot of our mental energy. We may rent for a while so that we have ample time to find our next home, or we may try to take on the added stress of buying and selling right now. Decisions. Decisions.

3. We had a great double date on Friday night with some new friends from our new Sunday school class.

4. Saturday was a day of work -
-bathed all 3 dogs
- vaccumed and dusted the entire house
- laundry.
- Brian and his dad (thank God for Dale!) spent all morning and afternoon cleaning leaves out
of our yard
- looked at a few houses

5. I had a wonderful lunch with my mom, sister, brother-in-law, niece, and nephew (who ate grilled cheese, plain Ruffles potato chips dipped in strawberry jelly, and peppermint hot chocolate - GROSS!)

6. We spent a lovely evening with my SIL and BIL at their lovely home. Josh grilled steaks, and Lauren made yummy mashed potatoes and beans. We really enjoyed catching up with them.

7. We attended church and Sunday school and were truly blessed by some great Bible teaching.

8. We had a great Sunday lunch at Olive Garden with my dad, stepmom, sisters, BIL, niece, and nephew.

9. Brian and I headed home for a much needed nap.

10. Our nap was cut short by a realtor's phone call who wanted to show our house right then. So, we loaded up the dogs and headed to Sonic.

My goodness, I'm tired. In just a bit, we're headed out to a Super Bowl party, and then we'll be heading home to start the work week. ICK! I wish we could have money without having jobs, don't you? Some people live for their careers, but I think that I'm too much of a domestic diva for that. I'm not sure that I'll ever be truly happy at a job when I have such a strong desire to be taking care of my home and family.

To a more restful week!